(Alert: this is more like a personal note)
Assalamualaikum dan hye.
Petang tadi aku ada terbaca satu IG story Mato.
Masa aku baca tu, agak berkerut juga dahi ini.
Satu.
The way he talks how his family murajaah al-Quran, sounds and looks like really idealist. All day with Quran. Kalau taknak dengar Quran, tak payah bukak radio.
Weyh.
Like seriously?
I was and still AM in struggling dalam murajaah. Kalau bukak radio, still dengar lagu instead of dengar ayat-ayat suci. Kalau bukak music dekat handphone, still dengar lagu instead of ayat-ayat suci. Kalau dengar lagu dekat youtube masa study, still dengar lagu.
Then, I started comparing me and him.
I cant really know the way of his family in mendidik the importance of Quran in their life. I dont know that and I dont want to make any assumption how their life is as my assumption could be wrong in many levels.
But, if I can compare my life and him, I could say that his life is much more challenging, filled with more struggle and hurdle, and yada yada, compared to mine.
I dont have much pressure in my life.
I dont have depression (so far). Alhamdulillah.
I dont have mental illness (so far). Alhamdulillah.
But how many level that I already climbed in order to keep my hafazan?
How far am I to murajaah every each ayat in the Quran?
Aku tahu salah sebab compare hidup aku dengan hidup orang lain tapi in this kind of comparing, nampaklah yang aku ni jauh beribu batu lagi nak capai tahap tak-dengar-Quran-tak-payah-pasang-lagu.
Dua.
I'm quite sentap when reading his mom's sentence.
"What ever you do, how busy you are in a day, recite Quran. If you're still busy, listen to Quran. If you're so occupied, pray that you have the time to spend with Quran."
Despite all the things that he had done in his life, he still recite Quran in each day.
But for me?
Tepuk dada tanya iman.
Peace yo. Salam ^_^
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